I can understand your feeling.  It is hard to get motivated in general but more so if it is gloomy out.  I used to live in Indiana and realized that I was more depressed there than when I have lived in Arizona.  There is so much sun here that even just looking outside can help a little bit.  
I feel that I don't ever get enough done.  I know you feeling of thinking that you are going to have to go out and get a job.  It sucks.  Especially with all the hope that these crypto blogging platforms have brought.  When it didn't continue or materialize like in the case with Synereo it can kind of deflate you.  I'm playing the Steemit game pretty strategic.  Hopefully it will pay off big for us.  You should have a decent chunk in your account to live off for awhile with the new power down structure as long as the price stays above $0.10.   I'm predicting it will get down below $0.05 soon though.  We will see.  Only time will tell.