Nice post and real. I was blind sided by a very unexpected event that changed my life. I meditated and prayed every day for things to be the way I wanted them.  It didn't happen and I later came to understand it was for the best.  I didn't see how I could survive emotionally or financially.  A good friend said to me, "just take one bite of the elephant at a time".  And, also, "a way will be made."  It was hard but gradually I could see  a new life unfolding.  Fear is a necessary evil I guess much like anger but both waste lots of thought and energy.  All the best to you and anyone who deals with either of these.