This post just make me look back on my past. It talks about the guy I should to be. My last relationship, I really love her and felt we were meant to be. She was my happiness, I did everything to make her happy Eventhough it brought pain to me. I used to think my life would be meaniless without her in it. Alot of event and  circumstances were against our relationship but I kept fighting even when she believed things won't work out.

During 3 years of our relationship, we broke up  several times and still get back. I was usually the guy trying to bring restore the relationship. I knew she loves me but the problem was her unwillingness to fight for the success of the relationship.

I examined by life, I had few friends and she was the person I spend almost all my free time with. I discovered I was not having personal time with myself because my devotion to be with her.

Before we ended the relationship, I realized something, "If you not willing to sacrifice for the things you value, it will be easy push over".

She end the relationship but the unusual thing is that I haven't tried to reach out to her for 7 months now though I may have not completely gotten over her.


Right now, my best time is moment I work on improving my self. I have more friends compared to when I was with her. My perception about relationship is that if it won't enhance the personality and well being of the parties involved, it should not ventured into.