Struggling to find myself by sergiomendes

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palnet · @sergiomendes · Aug 21 '19

$3.16

Struggling to find myself

Hell.

That's where I feel I am living lately.

I'm more than the usual mess that You get in here.

I would maybe even say that I am lost.

We all have our own style and our own thing. And I feel that I've lost my mojo and I can't find myself in me or even in life.

In this past couple of years I got to grow a lot and learn a lot about myself and who I am but at this exact moment I am at a point that I lost track again.

And the reason I am opening up and talking about it and sharing this together with this photos it is because I felt that I don't really have a recognisable style that would allow others to see a photo that I have captured and know instantly that is a photo of mine.

![LRM_EXPORT_325389542556917_20190821_000136897.jpeg](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/sergiomendes/IXEUeWv4-LRM_EXPORT_325389542556917_20190821_000136897.jpeg)

![LRM_EXPORT_325377454894964_20190821_000124809.jpeg](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/sergiomendes/PSRq1k1c-LRM_EXPORT_325377454894964_20190821_000124809.jpeg)

![LRM_EXPORT_325377454894964_20190821_000124809.jpeg](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/sergiomendes/lKsaPPrX-LRM_EXPORT_325377454894964_20190821_000124809.jpeg)

![LRM_EXPORT_325434302273808_20190821_000221657.jpeg](https://files.steempeak.com/file/steempeak/sergiomendes/9nJOy8V6-LRM_EXPORT_325434302273808_20190821_000221657.jpeg)

But anyway. As You can tell by this photos, today I was at work and as per usual I like to share some daily moments and what I have for lunch and even if my mood was not the best I wouldn't leave the day go with documenting this.

And luckily it was good to get me to accept that I am really lost and I need to find a way to find myself and to find my voice.

By the way if You go and watch the video I have uploaded earlier You can see what I mean when I say it was a terrible day.

Hope You enjoy this photos.

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@tiankong · Aug 21 '19

Delicious food, I want to taste a bite.

👍 sergiomendes

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@sergiomendes · Aug 22 '19

It was. Feel free to taste it eheh

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@robertandrew · Aug 21 '19

Interesting as I have never seen those Nestle products here in the States

👍 sergiomendes

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@sergiomendes · Aug 22 '19

$0.03

such simple stuff as chocolates and so many choices and differences from country to country right???

👍 robertandrew

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@pixiepost · Aug 21 '19

I love you, my friend. When we lose our way, we have each other to help find our way back. 

Take all the time you need. Sometimes these shifts are necessary to help us change & find a new way of life. Even though it's hard right now, you got this. I am here if you need an ear. 🙏❤️✨

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👍 sergiomendes

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@sergiomendes · Aug 22 '19

Thank You so much for so many nice words for this past couple weeks that I have been stressing out :D

👍 pixiepost

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@pixiepost · Aug 22 '19

You're welcome. Hey that's what friends do for each other! Always will be there for you. 🤗💞

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