thank you @jaki01 - my dearest wish for everyone is to find their true path. I think happiness has to come with a few bumps in the road otherwise we would never appreciate the good times. Part of my disappointment is that I really don't need to make more than $1000 a month for hubby and I to live comfortably. So I wasn't seeking work that required a lot of thinking! Unfortunately, I'm always looking for more efficient, smart ways to improve and my input wasn't appreciated. LOL  I do feel better today - a lot better. The Steemit community is absolutely wonderful.