Sadness There you were looking at me . I recall how I felt that day and how you looked at me with a blank stare. I tried to look away but it seemed as if your eyes were glued to me loving you was the easiest yet hardest thing. You met her and I remember how I felt when you told me about her. Sad, confused. disappointed, mostly sad. what did she have that I didn't? she looks pretty but was her soul prettier than mine ? Oh well I guess if you're happy, I'm happy I thought in my head. knowing I was lying to myself... Oh how I miss you ..and you're with her. 
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I really like this statement: loving you was the easiest yet hardest thing. Its true thought. Love makes us happy but oftentimes it left us devastated. A sad reality
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