There's nothing wrong with being bisexual, gay or otherwise. I think when you find out who you truly like to be with, your life will get better. I went through some similar stuff and it was because i was afraid of intimacy.....Not sure if you know yet what you want, but it sounds like you're excited by men more than women. You're ok with whatever you decide, but I think accepting yourself will get easier once you know what makes you truly fulfilled.