Well you have successfully made me almost smile, I’d say it’s a smirk 😏 and also gave some great advice. That quote is deadly accurate and I’ve got to get it together and remember to rise above the bullshit... It’s good to know I’m not alone in these struggles to be free, from outside influences and self imposed ones.. I can’t really say I have made more than a few friends here over almost 3 years and I definitely don’t want to tell them how awful I find their country, for one because there really are beautiful aspects to life here and two they’re painfully aware of the trappings and I can imagine don’t want to hear a westerner bitch and moan.. 

What’s really getting to me though is the asinine policy that someone married to a citizen isn’t eligible to work.  Not as if I totally value my existence on capitalist productivity but my indoctrination is difficult to overcome.. Able bodied and of relatively sound mind, but unable to provide is a difficult constraint on a bi-racial marriage. In fact it seems quite purposeful to deter the practice and getting to this stage hasn’t been easy..