Nervous break down and my take on the experiment by thegoldencookie

steemit · @thegoldencookie · Mar 14 '17

$2.53

Nervous break down and my take on the experiment

A few days ago I experienced something I can only explain to be a small nervous break down.

![enter image description here](https://media.giphy.com/media/3DE8eBtxSQsKc/giphy.gif)
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Daniel and I were in bed playing games and chatting when all of a sudden I burst into tears. I couldn't control my emotions and couldn't give an answer to my very concerned fiance about what was going on. This carried on for a while and I even started laughing through my tears. Then as quickly as it started, it stopped.  

![enter image description here](https://i0.wp.com/cdn2.gurl.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/05/fine-gif.gif)
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As most of you know I'm about to get married in a few months, there is still a lot to be done and I keep having nightmares about the day going horribly wrong. What is new however, is that Daniel and I also need to move only a month before the wedding.

![enter image description here](https://az616578.vo.msecnd.net/files/2015/11/17/6358337478967936021396683331_anigif_mobile_d8d6ae7936c479d3aee30592520879b0-0.gif)
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Then additional stress occurred. Steemit is my only source of income, many changes have occurred on the platform but the one that had the biggest impact on me was that the value of steem keeps falling. My account is worth half of what it was a month ago and the payout I'm receiving is not enough to contribute anything to my household. Still I press on and write almost every day. I don't complain but instead I find myself praying that the site doesn't go down and take my investment with it. I also found that yesterday I had been down voted multiple times for the experiment the whales are doing. 

![enter image description here](http://vignette2.wikia.nocookie.net/glee/images/1/1d/Screaming.gif/revision/latest?cb=20130124205715)
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This experiment seems to be making a lot of people unhappy, so unhappy that people are going on strike. Although I share in their unhappiness, I think that I might give the experiment some time to play out. Hopefully things get better. 

![enter image description here](https://68.media.tumblr.com/faa01c0f5b0050d6051419847c841704/tumblr_njmmcveWDN1unchqzo1_500.gif)
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xoxo
@thegoldencookie

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@rossenpavlov · Mar 14 '17

$0.02

I understand your frustration, but please don't expect steemit to pay your bills. At least in the near future. The flag experiment is temporary.

👍 twinner, shaka, elyaque, steempire, pollux.one, steemperor, freiheit50, beers, uwelang, bellastella

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@thegoldencookie · Mar 14 '17

It has never been an expectation however I'm the independent type. I don't pay the bills but that doesn't mean that I don't like contributing to them. I haven't given up on Steemit yet, writing is a passion, getting paid for it is a bonus. Was just sharing my thoughts and feelings that's all

👍 kenny-crane

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@heikomahr · Mar 14 '17

The experiment affects most of thus here, so don't be frustrated...

👍 thegoldencookie

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@karenmckersie · Mar 14 '17

No one should ever depend on steemit for survival ! Its a long term investment which is how i see it ! All my steem is powered up , and in the future once steemit is big and out of beta we will then cash in !! Could be years from now ! Just keep saving it all for the future and who knows by then we could all be rich ! Steem on ! And good luck !💙👍

👍 thegoldencookie, azfix, steemspeak

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@azfix · Mar 14 '17

I agree, it could be worthless tomorrow so no one should plan their life around it!

👍 karenmckersie, thegoldencookie

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@karenmckersie · Mar 14 '17

Exactly ! Or any investment for that matter !

👍 thegoldencookie

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