As a writer, my dilemma is more often about having *too many* things I could write about in any given moment, rather than feeling stuck because I am drawing a blank... the dreaded *"writer's block."*

I was reminded of this fact this morning, as I started wading through the 100's of junky emails in my inbox... and I realized that I tend to find inspiration even in the subject lines of SPAM, as I get ready to dump it into the Internet Graveyard.

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*Summer thoughts, on a cold winter's day...*

So there I sit, thinking to myself *"Oooh, that would make a good title!"* and *"Oh cool, that adds a missing bit of reasoning to that line of thought from last week!*"

And yet? 

Most of these will never see the light of day... not because I don't think they are *worthy* ideas, but because I simply don't have the time. The scant 30 minutes here and 45 minutes there I have for blogging makes it impossible for me to keep up.

Writing — ultimately — remains just a hobby for me; a diversion.

Sometimes I find it hard to believe that there actually was a time when I *actively* kept up about 15 blogs! Mind you, I didn't post on each one, every day... but they all got at least *a post a week.* 

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*Autumn leaves...*

I lived a different life then, one that *cost* less, and one that required fewer work hours to make life possible.

I always wrote for the *enjoyment* of it, though. Although about half those blogs were what you might call *"product support blogs"* (meaning that there was some kind of sales pitch for something I was selling in there, somewhere), I wrote them because I *felt like it.*

Much of my writing remains thus, today...

I have heard it said that a person's *True Calling* is something they'd continue to do, regardless of whether or not it is something they get paid for. Sometimes I consider the possibility that writing *is* my True Calling... even though I have never made an actual living at it...

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*View across the bay*

Of course, the "elephant" in the middle of my existence has long been the reality that I have never made an *"actual living"* at pretty much *anything* I have attempted to do.

A friend of mine once observed (about 3-4 years ago) that I have been *"unsuccessfully self-employed"* for three decades. That *"stung"* a bit, but there's more truth to it than meets the eye.

Either that, or I just have a remarkable talent for getting involved in projects people have plenty of *appreciation* for, but otherwise don't really *value* very much. 

Meanwhile, I am trying to find some good cheer in the fact that the Steem token is showing minor signs of life today...

Thanks for reading, as always!

*(Another **#creativecoin** creative non-fiction post)*

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