I've lost a lot of time to feel happy and fulfilled. Fulfilling is a small desire and not always enough. In fact, it characterizes your inner world. I have passed over the death of a man very dear to my soul. My heart was broken in thousands of pieces, and I was deceived. The people I held left without regret. I felt a huge gap in my soul. I felt so alone. You know what I'm talking about?

I'm sure many of you felt the same feelings that I felt.

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When I was alone I felt the infinite, and that scared me. The idea that I could stay alone forever was my fear. I have desperately tried to fill the void within me. My friends offered me a lot of choices: to write everything I feel, to be positive and to live my life, to think about work and what I like to do, to pay attention to other women.

Much of these tips have helped me. All I was doing was just occupation that helped me forget it. I did not feel satisfied and fulfilled. Yes, there are people who can help you. People who care. But they can be around you not for a long time. It's hard to handle this case.

The truth is that people can not be around you every day to help you cope with difficulties. I do not want anyone to be around me anytime and anywhere. I want to be strong and to cope. I finally understood: I have to love myself. No one can love me for me. It took me years to understand this. What have I done? How love helped me to escape the inner void and loneliness?

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Before I loved myself, I had to meet myself. I spent a lot of time with my own thoughts. I found out what I like most, which makes me smile or cry. I started to pay attention to everything. I listened to the others and formed my own opinion. I became my best friend for myself. I thought what I really want from life. I made plans and every day for me was a new beginning. I started with small steps, then with great strides to what I really wanted. Because I paid attention to my own ideas and dreams.

I made time for myself. I used my loneliness to get to know me and to focus on me, to grow up and grow. The more I knew, the better I felt. I started to feel fulfilled again. I will always miss my mother. My heart will beat me harder when I think of my dear ones.

But I'm no longer afraid of life. I'm not afraid of the unknown.

I have myself. I have this wonderful life. And you too. That's why be your friend. Do what you like. Love to you will make your life easier. It makes sense to every day of your life, even if you have not found your Man.
I know what to do, because I have myself. I love myself and I hope you love yourself too.