Dear Fear...(Part 1) by tikatarot

life · @tikatarot · Nov 14 '18

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Dear Fear...(Part 1)

![DSC01067-1.jpg](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmcGw1c9oBEYrqRjLsuhfkAvfkjmkvCkRSG8EpsbpydAWE)

![top-feather.png](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmXegGXVLS2Vdu79vEtaY8PNY4mTCQjzqDz6YNw7qkGJ4h)

Why do you keep on eating me to the point nothing is left with me. Now, I need to recover and start and begin again. Starting all over the thought of positivity, self-assurance, and reviewing what my real passions are. How long can I recover again after eating into my mind? Digging deep into my thoughts and leaving me alone in the dark. If only I can swim deep until you’ve been removed totally in my dream, and erase the thoughts and uneasiness. I just wanted to just close my eyes until there is a bright sunshine again until everything is well again, and until I get my true self back again. I got few steps ahead of my goals, unquestionable achievements, and numerous options away but here you come, one minute had passed, then I started doubting everything again. Why can’t you appear when I’m ready then I don’t get to run over this dilemma again and again. Then you get to blame me when everything goes wrong, after the event you’ve less expect to happen.

![bottom-feather.png](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmP4b3qGVUvXiqxoUUTDDrX23BEtegztbCK7HtCLdb5dtw)

Here is Tikatarot, who dares you to answer the question, *“Who am I?”...*

As and will always be reminding you to dream:
*“As you are still the Master of your own destiny and the maker of your own dreams…”*

![tikatarot sign.png](https://ipfs.busy.org/ipfs/QmYSeRfyvjC7AQVeGUSVmeqdyQuT8ExWRShGKpSPGc6goN)

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@steemitboard · Nov 18 '18

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