Sorry that you’re going through a rough time. Not one with many commitments at all here, but I partly understand that staying at home for extended periods of time can be maddening sometimes, even to the point of developing tunnel vision. But all in all it’s likely the situation is not as bad as it seems.

Keep writing! Maybe even build a garden at home!

You're writing doesn't have to be your inner most thoughts exclusively.

Try a different approach, join a growing community related to steemit in one of the discord channels, read/comment/curate instead of posting or even host a fun contest and enjoy the process. 

I can relate to a lot of what you wrote here, you may be feeling stuck in a routine when you're truly craving something bigger or more meaningful than the day to day. Breaking up your routine by doing small things can help a lot as well.

Hello friend, this situation happens to most of the people. Anything that limits your activity will lead to increase in thought process, most of the thoughts might be negative. I will suggest you to get out of the comfort zone as soon as possible, because if it becomes a habit to dislike working outside then will diminish the jewel in you. You need to keep on polishing yourself to shine in life, start will a small work and go on improving and develop new skills, trust me in 5 yrs you will earn more than your wife, and will be more content and happy, because if we sit idle our body tries to destroy itself. Always remember value addition is life. Adding value to everything will add value to yourself.

I'm a teacher and when I'm on longer school holidays I sometimes just stay home and after a while I start to feel very down and I get stuck in kind of a rut. Perhaps try going for a run, go fishing. If you enjoy traveling, plan a trip and the weeks up until your trip will be a lot easier to get through. I should be saying "live for today" but I really think if you have things to look forward to in the future then you'll feel better.
I understand when you mention writing down your inner most thoughts. I also know no other way but to lay a lot of it out there, it's just an honesty thing and if that's who you are then that's cool. Nothing wrong. Perhaps you're craving that connection with people because you're home so much. You can also connect with people on topics you're passionate about. 
All in all, I think you just need to get out and do something for you. I'm sorry you're having a rough time. It will pass. But just get out a little! :-)

I don't know exactly how you feel, but I did take my turn as a stay at home dad from the time my son was 3 to 18 months. I can tell you I was an awesome dad... but a below average mom. You are right. We are wired differently than moms. And that is OK! Because even if you are at home, your job is not to be the mom. Your job is to be a kick ass dad. 

The fact that you were in the military (I was not so thank you for your service!) probably means you are like me and big into "pulling your weight". Well I can tell you from experience that there is no bigger weight to pull than being a parent. But it is weird when you are a dad. We like to see projects through from beginning to end. 

When we put up drywall, we sand it, paint it and then stand back and say "That's a damn good job. Well done.  I earned a beer." 

But with parenting, there is no finished product. So it may feel like you aren't accomplishing anything. But believe me. You are. Every day. If you look at every day as it's own project, that might help. You accomplish something every day by just making it to bedtime. 

When you look back in 20 years, I think you will realize you performed the most important job in your life (although I bet yours might be spilt between your service to your family and your service to the citizens of your country).

20 years from now, you won't find many people who say, "Man I wish I worked more."  But you will find many who say, "Man I wish I spent more time with my kids." I'm not a very religious guy but I do believe in fate. Maybe your kid really needs you right now. Maybe there is a very good reason that you are being directed toward staying at home. 

That's all great and logical, but you still have feelings. My suggestion would be to get away from your house every once in a while. Being there all day every day can make you go stir crazy.  Set some time aside for yourself man. You are *earning* it. You are "going against your wiring" for the good of your family. That's pretty heroic man. 

By the way, parenting does get much easier. If it didn't, no one in the world would ever have more than 1...

I know how you feel bro.   It ends up being a tough position because you want to feel super productive and bring down mad bits or $ and do everything at home so that when your wife comes home everything is happy but it is tough.   I have had my struggles on finding good consistent IT work in Tucson and it has gotten bad enough that I pretty much have a bad attitude about it and don't even want to waste my time anymore with it here.   I recently wasted my time interviewing for a cloud computing position and they had me take all these assessments and all this and that and at the end of it they hired another guy who was friends with someone who already worked there so the position wasn't even available in the first place.   

Hopefully you can find the right motivation and balance at home to be in a good mindset.  I know it has been hard for me at times to figure out what I need to be doing to be most productive around here.

I can imagine that juggling responsibilities must be quite stressful, however I was once told that nothing worth doing in life was ever easy. The same will be for you juggling the responsibilities of being Dad and caring for your kids, as well as pushing your projects forward. Its going to be hard, but you will push through. You have the support of the commmunity here, you just have to let people know when you are struggling! Like now. Keep kicking ass man.

It’s hard to feel useful and valuable when your training in the military isn’t applicable to civilian life. Take your time and do the best you can at being a stay at hone dad. This is a valuable job most fathers would give their left nut to spend more time with their kids. Be super proud of your wife and her ability to gain a PhD and have a great income to support your family. This doesn’t make your contribution  less valuable. 
Writing was never one of my strengths but I enjoy sharing the pictures I’ve taken along the way. 
Stay strong brother.

Go out back and record yourself building or destroying something (safely).

Then you can post it for everyone's enjoyment and don't even have to worry about doing much writing xD

Get paid by youtube and steemit for sharing the process and experience.
If it's not something useful for you or the kid, sell whatever you build locally or on the net for some steem!

Maybe you can find ways for the little one to help out :)

I am a work from home/stay at home/housewife.

I understand your situation, and sometimes too feel 'worthless'. raising children might not feel stimulating or rewarding to all of us, but it is the most important job in the world

You are working on stuff too, give it time, work hard, find a balance that suits and your value will be repaid.

Maybe you can  try to learn something that do not need to communicate with people much if  it really puzzled you. Then just start communicating with the computer or any other objective things you like that can support your life someway. I mean writing some codes in home and to be a programer. Or to find what you really love which gives you what you need.

That pressure to contribute, to add or find meaning is part of our domestic-ization, its not real, more of an emotional reaction, a fake instinct. There is no such thing as value, it’s a synthetic concept, an agreement among humans. It does nothing helpful for our biology, which can only maintain homeostasis by balancing actual responses to actual events. OODA loop situational awareness stuff you may have come across in military training. Thanks for sharing honestly

I think you've gotten some really solid advice in the comments section here, and I'm not sure there's a lot I can add... but when I'm going through tough times, one quote that makes a difference to me is:

"If you're going through Hell... keep going."

Stay positive :)

Blake, I really identified with the statement you made about feeling like you couldn't finish what you started. It's a real bear of a situation to get past on your own. Fortunately such a statement is not ignored here on Steemit!. I am really impressed with the considered responses you've gotten here. Really great ideas and good solid Actions that you can take to move out of your rut and back onto your own path to glory!

Your way out of not wanting to write is... to write. It doesn't matter what you write about. It doesn't matter for whom you write. Just write. 

Set your intention for the day by being productive as early as you can. Having had a couple of kids who were that age a long time ago, I know you may not always control your time. If you can find ways to gain control over some part you will feel better about yourself and how you spend your time.

Do you still make your bed? You did every day in the military and you did it for two reasons. One is conformity but that is less important. The big reason is so you accomplished something positive and put your space in order before doing anything else. Make your bed. I do every morning and I hate it. I also open the blinds which is nice. And I force myself to get dressed (work at home).

Journaling is highly recommended. (I haven't read the other comments but will assume others have suggested it.) Yanik Silver is a big proponent of [journaling](http://www.internetlifestyle.com/blog/ramblings/increase-happiness-journal-writing/). Start with the basics. Repeat them if you have to.  Write down your accomplishments and your goals. Every. Day.

If you do this, please reply in a few weeks. I'm interested to see how it goes.

Hello. I'm brand new here. I found you @ed of the outerdark. I was thinking about the frustration you described and thought of times when I have felt similarly.  Many times I have felt frustrated and confused about a direction feeling that I should do more somehow or differently or something.  Creativity becomes rote and motivation is low. What ususally happens with me if I hang in there is there is some kind of breakthrough in my thinking or I meet a new person or find a new outlet which gives rise to a new creative burst. I think of it now as a natural organic process like a plant growing. New growth over time becomes old turns to wood. Its not sexy but it is the base out of which the new growth springs. It still sucks every time and can create anxiety and doubt. But in my mind and heart there is a reason and purpose for us all that is bigger than our egoic sense of self. This unique purpose lies in us just as a mighty oak tree lies within an acorn. Our main job is to be still and let it happen, i think. At least that is how I try to manage these times. The old stuff has to die in order to make room for the new. The struggle and search provides the energy and material for the new growth just ahead. So when I read this post my first thought was that guy is about to have a cool creative breakthrough. Good journey brother.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I know how you feel. I only have the education for entry-level jobs too. I feel I have some artistic talent, but it's so hard to make a living creatively. I recently watched this video from JP Sears and I found it very helpful for this question:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nddTLsTMKPI